kids are so cute!!

My nephew, S, is two years old and sometimes he does the cutest of things. I wont go over how he’s the best nephew there is, and had the most wicked yet innocent smile ever, and that he knows even at two just how to play people and that he’s become my jaan.. cuz im sure its the same for everyone.

Anyway, i spent half-day with my aapi (his mother) and the kids today. After iftar, i was feeling my usual heavy headedness and badly wanted a smoke to complete my own iftari.. so after everyone was done and all, i quitely tried to slip downstairs without anyone noticing. Well, i had almost succeeded! My nephew, S, heard the door opening and ran towards it. When he saw i was trying to leave, he tried his level best not to let me with “maamu, aao”, “maamu andar”. I told him i would be right back, and not to worry… but he was not to be dettered. Then, and i dont know how he did it.. but he devised the best way to get me to come back.

Very innocently, he held out his hand… and said “maamu, chabi” indicating to me that he wanted me to handover my car keys!!!

That was just sssooo darn cute!!! though i was surprized that how at age two, he could come up with that?!

After i handed over the keys, he happily let me leave. Though by that time, quitely slipping away was no longer an option, as everyone was gathered at the door.

status quo

Recently, over at my cousins, we had sort of a jamming session, getting everything off our collective chests and trying to feel a bit better about the mess that has become life. During this session, i realized something….

i was not connected anywhere..

Almost in all scenario’s the discussion involved “… and i asked S for advice…” “…M told me not too, but i didnt lissen…” “…U had been my support throughout …”

No where was i mentioned.. infact, most of the stuff i had heard for the first time ever. And these were the latest controversies in my own family.

That night led me to thinking… about how much a member of my extended family i really am? Before, i’ve always kind of prided myself in not being involved in the petty discussions going on everywhere and being kind of aloof… but these things were not petty. They were pretty life changing decisions being taken by people i hold really close to my heart.

In the last couple of days, i’ve thought a lot… and i have’nt come up with a solution! i’m so bad at socializing, that my nephew and niece promptly forget me in between meetings, and everytime i have to remind them that i’m their mamo! They know my other two cousins by name!

On the other hand however, being aloof has allowed me to live a relatively peaceful life. Since im not involved in the pettiness, im not involved in the fights, i have no bad will with any of my relatives, the little while i do meet them, i have a pretty good time…

Of the choices i have right now, im leaning towards maintaining the status-quo.

A TAX-ing experience

Not really one of those inspirational titles, but anyway, here goes.

Today, i wrote up (and will subsequently) file the first tax return of my life. After see-ing the horror on everyone’s faces whenever tax time rolls around, i thought it was going to be one hell of an experience. Add to it, that i did not have any help, still dont know *where* excatly to file the return, and where im going to come up with the money to pay it (thats resolved now), it promised to be one hell of a ride.

But thankfully, CBR proved to be quite a bit more helpful than expected. Thanks to their website, and all excel-based (autocalculating) forms, the whole experience turned out to be a breeze.

In just under 1.5 hours, i had written up and printed out my first ever return form. Im feeling quite proud of myself here. Just one problem though i missed the lowest tax slab by just a measely 9k!! and now my tax has gone up 2k!!

Tomorrow, im gonna go file it, and hopefully, going to return without much problems.

blogthought: If I could, I would..

If i could, i would make you realize that all you need to be is the complete you and i’d be the happiest guy on earth!

That even through all your ups and downs, all your irritating habits, all your needs, your incapability of doing stuff for me, being with you… is what makes me…. truly happy!

Setting the mood…

There are some things in life which immediately set your mood, especially if they happen in the morning. It could be your favourite song on the radio, seeing a specific color, a TV ad, seeing your best friends’ face passing by in the traffic on her way to work, anything… but after that, you can rest assured that the rest of the day would be nothing short of beautiful and exhilarating.

This is what happened this morning to me, as i made my way down from my new diggs down to work. The radio was set on CityFM 89, with Mr. Suhail Hashmi blaring out his musical selection, and just when i was about to change the station, it started…..

The song with which i’ve always had great memories.. the song which can lift me out almost instantaneously out of any doldrum life throws at me….

Udit Narayan and Sandhana Sargam’s Pehla Nasha

Two of my most favourite passages from the song..

Chaahe tum kuchh na kaho maine sun liyaKi saathi pyaar ka mujhe chun liyaChun liyaMaine Sun liya

and

Usne baat ki kuchh aise dhang seSapne de gaya vo hazaaron range keUsne baat ki kuchh aise dhang seSapne de gaya vo hazaaron range keReh jaoon jaise main haar keAur choome vo mujhe pyaar se

And whats even better than this song?? the remix version of it!

when ur on ur own….

the only one worth relying on is yourself.

This came to me as revelation this morning, after a series of events.

1. I have a batman (an orderly.. not the crime fighter :p) with me where i live now, to make sure the cleaning, washing and other stuff gets taken care off. After a week of living at this place, i’ve realized the batman is really not interested in cleaning, washing and other stuff.. That i’ve started doing myself mostly….

2. The dhobi is not giving back my clothes.. as a result, now i have no clothes! So from today, i start washing my own clothes too…

3. This morning, for sehri, the batmans for the entire building (forgot?) to wake up and bring sehri to the rooms of other people around me… thank goodness i goto the mess for sehri, so i had it.. otherwise, everyone else is keeping a sehri-less roza.

4. My batman is not really interested in waking me up in the mornings either…. This issue, i have yet to resolve….

5. My best friend, whom i even threatened last nite that if she doesnt wake me up in the morning, i’ll start looking for a new best friend.. forgot to wake me up! Consequently.. im looking for a new best friend now. LoL juz kiddin! she’s just toooo sweet not to remain my best friend

and so, when on your own, you can only rely on yourself, or get wasted :p

Pehla Roza

Ramzan has finally begun in our fair city (country) after the usual mess by the Ruet-e-Hilal committee. Personally, its going to be a very different ramzan for me this year.

Till now, Sehri’s used to comprise of mom’s daant (for waking up late), Kellogs Frosties, Egg + Toast, and Tea. Iftars were at home, with the usual pakora+samosa deal, fruit chat followed by dinner. Last year, i didnt even go out with friends all that much, hardly four times, the rest were all at home.

This year, since i’ve started living alone, I’ve yet to see what will iftari be like. But i like the sehri that i had today. Anda Paratha, Dahi-sugar-paratha and Tea! YUMM!!! (they also had palak-allo which is *not* so yumm, hence omitted).

I got woken up at around 4:15 by my roommate, and we headed to the mess to have sehri.. ate.. came back.. prayed, and then i promptly went back to sleep! Little did i know… (well, i did actually.. at the back of my mind), that i would oversleep!!

Came to office at 10:30! Its 11:49 and im already feeling way thirsty…. plus, writing about sehris and iftaris right now wasnt a good choice either :S

This is going to be one TOUGH ramzan!! Happy fasting everyone!

Now for the words of wisdom for anyone caring to listen
1. Be kind to your fellow man this ramzan!!!
2. Fasting is no excuse for not working!!!

bus… thats it.

tagged

i feel like a wild animal under observation whenever i read this line ‘your tagged’! The images of a person in a white lab coat druggin me and piercing an electronic transmitter on my ear gets eerily real!!

Anyway, i was tagged by dear, dear checkmate! so here goes. I, in turn, tag Icedmocha and Tanzila!!

I am thinking about:
her… the one i have, yet can never have…..

I said,
“just five more minutes!!!” while gettin up every morning… n then get hellishly late

I want to,
have my choti choti khushian! dats what makes life much more worth living…

I wish,
i could be a kid again… and laugh without wondering what it would be taken as?!

I miss,
refer to the first question

I hear,
Fan’s!! since the AC’s on the fritz again :@

I wonder,
when will i get a 100k+ job??

I regret,
Nothing! Made sure of that!!

I am,
an enigma……. no, actually.. im as transparent as heavily tinted window’s

I dance,
wildly! but for myself only!

I cry,
have’nt for a long time… but the last time was when i was too shocked to do anything else!

I am not always,
fun… okay, i admit it.. im a nerd and can get hellishly boring at times!

I write,
whatever my heart feels like.. no restrictions

I need,
a tall glass of juice!

I finish,
a cigarette and wonder what good its gonna do me?!

hungry for a day

What do you do when you go hungry for a day??

Make sure it doesnt happen again by getting Rs. 350 worth of junk food in your room

Right now, im having the Pringles… yummmmmm!

blogwordoftheweek: words

Let my words be my sanctuary,
Let my words be my prison,
Let my words by my sword,
Let my words be my flower.

My words…. My thoughts…. My pleasure…. My Pain!

(c) ME!!!