when ur on ur own….

the only one worth relying on is yourself.

This came to me as revelation this morning, after a series of events.

1. I have a batman (an orderly.. not the crime fighter :p) with me where i live now, to make sure the cleaning, washing and other stuff gets taken care off. After a week of living at this place, i’ve realized the batman is really not interested in cleaning, washing and other stuff.. That i’ve started doing myself mostly….

2. The dhobi is not giving back my clothes.. as a result, now i have no clothes! So from today, i start washing my own clothes too…

3. This morning, for sehri, the batmans for the entire building (forgot?) to wake up and bring sehri to the rooms of other people around me… thank goodness i goto the mess for sehri, so i had it.. otherwise, everyone else is keeping a sehri-less roza.

4. My batman is not really interested in waking me up in the mornings either…. This issue, i have yet to resolve….

5. My best friend, whom i even threatened last nite that if she doesnt wake me up in the morning, i’ll start looking for a new best friend.. forgot to wake me up! Consequently.. im looking for a new best friend now. LoL juz kiddin! she’s just toooo sweet not to remain my best friend

and so, when on your own, you can only rely on yourself, or get wasted :p

living out of a box

When your moving from one house to another, you pack up everything you have into boxes. By everything… i mean everything!

Thursday, i spent in packing up my room.. put all my clothes in boxes and almost taped them shut before realizing…. im still going to be here for another week! The result? Now i have no clothes out and too lazy to unpack the stuff! So, im living out of a box now, while im still at my own place.

Thankfully, im not alone! Another friend/blogger is going through the same dillema, having packed up kitchen stuff, and now has to unpack, use, wash, repack everytime they have something to eat.

blogwordoftheweek: end

Change marks both the beginning and the end!

This weeks blogword fits in perfectly with the theme i’ve been carrying out on my blog, regarding the changes in my life.

What will this change end in the current state of affairs i call life?

1. living with family
2. living on the clifton side of the bridge
3. living in the same community for over 16 years
4. sharing a bathroom with my brother (and getting in countless fights over fogetting to unlock his door)
5. coming late to office (a direct consequence of point number 4)
6. managing household finances
7. monthly groceries routine
8. bi-weekly fruit shopping (i now how to pick ripe fruit!!!)
9. going home on time (still a question mark)
10. sneaking into the house when your late
11. homecooked meals (though still available from relatives places)
12. and many more….

On the other hand, this also marks the beginning of a new era, such as

1. living on my own
2. sharing a room with an unknown person (always wanted to know what that felt like)
3. going out whenever i want (day OR night)
4. eating out more
5. getting a much more active social life
6. cant think of more… :S

Cool! This is the first time i’ve listed these things down! Damn it! its gonna be FUN!

Template Change

I hereby title the second half of year 2006 as the “Half-Year of Change”.

Since everything is taking an new turn in my life, i decided to go and do some more changes! This time, to my blog template, leveraging the new features in Blogger Beta. (thanks to uXuf)

It doesnt offer anything new, since i’ve just ported the widgets i used before to the new template. And i’ve been wanting to use this ‘cleaner’ template for quite sometime now. However, one thing which has changed “under the hood” is how feeds are retrieved on the sidebar. I used to use a script called feed2js, but now i use the feature provided within blogger.

One thing which still doesnt work, and i dont know how to fix it…. The google adsense links on the sidebar.. somehow, they’re not being retrieved.. which leads me to believe that maybe the stat collecting links might not work either.. oh well, such is the price of change.

One note to other bloggers willing to check out the new features in Beta, when you add content, it will most of the times give you an error, or get stuck displaying the ‘Saving…’ label. Just ignore it, since it does the work in the background just fine.

Change – A constant

Only recently, i ranted about a change in my workplace… and what was my initial reaction to it. Mashallah, im all settled in my new place now, which i think is a bit better, since now i get to interact with the people more. I used to be at the end of the office and mostly lost in my own little world. So that was good.

Just as i was settling into that change, another one happened! And this was TOO sudden.

My mom informed me three days ago, that she’s decided to join my dad in Islamabad! She was just there for a week, to celebrate their 25th wedding anniversary (mashallah) and this bombshell dropped when she came back.

Now, i knew we had to move eventually, the house we’re currently living in is marked to be demolished and we were served the eviction notice quite sometime back. But i was under the impression the move was going to be localized in Karachi. Now its suddenly intercity. My brother will be going with mom to islamabad as well, while i’ll be staying back.

Why dont i join them? Two reasons… actually, just one reason. I have to finish off my university work (which is at its last stage) before i can actually leave the city. Oh yea.. and work.

Whats going to become of me then? Well, step number 1 is.. find a place to stay. I have the option of staying with relatives, and i *so dont* wanna exercise that option. Whats the fun of being alone in the city, if you still have to play by the rules… that too, someone else’s? My parents offered a certain level of freedom to me, and we had a ‘no interrogation’ policy at home about each others well being, if we were home at night at a decent time.

Im looking for a room to myself, probably in one of the navy messes, which will allow me some degree of freedom and a taste of what life on my own is like.

And so I predict, this blog is going to take a new turn as well (yet more change), along with my life.

The tides of change

I’m being made to change my seat at the office. We’re having new people coming in, and my spot was considered to be the most suitable for them. Aaarrggghhhh!!

This is BS! total BS!!!

Whats more BS is ‘where’ im being made to move… just in front of the bosses office!!! With no fan, and no privacy!!

I dont like this change…… i will probably adapt to it.. but not without a fight.

eviction notice

Today, we were ’served’ with an eviction notice to vacate the house we’ve lived in for the last 6 years. Its been “approved for demolition” and no longer considered safe to live in. So now, we’ll be moving to another place, setting that up and start living in it till the next shift. Bye bye wonderful community… i’ll miss you.

Now a little background.. im from a military family. There… thats the background. Haha. So anyway, we live in whatever accomodation allotted to us for the time being, depending upon where my father is posted.

Being from the military…. home doesnt have the same permanence for ‘us’ as it does for a lot of other people out there.. We cant make long term plans on decorating the place… you never know when you’ll shift out.. There’s no alterations you can do.. no enchancements (like adding a new room.. retiling the bathroom, etc), no personalization (coloring your room in a color you like.. and such).

My room consists of one wall-mounted study table, and a mattress on the floor. Thats about the whole ‘furniture’ in there… when i see other friends of mine doing ‘creative’ work with their places, or making modifications.. it always gets to me. Like this one friend did his room in a full blue theme and it looks WOW! my room.. its offwhite

The shifting program always reminds me of the the saying “home is where the heart is”. In my case.. wherever the military thinks its suitable. LoL!