Suitable

I was chatting with my gramps today, basically me and my brother, and he started off on the same topic which caused me much grief just recently. About when am i gonna get hitched.

My reply was the standard… “when i find a suitable person to spend my life with”

To which he asks “and what is suitable?”

That got me into thinking what qualities i would look for in the future Mrs. Mansoor. Would looks be up there? Would she just need to be of a a good nature? What?? I thought i had it pretty well thought out before, but today, i was stumped *yet* again.

My brother was not so tongue tied.. his perfect mate is someone who can listen to him talk about world in general.. someone who understands him. According to my grandfather, thats a pretty tall order.

But the question still remains… what would be “suitable” qualities in my partner?! I dont think im really that matured to figure it out. Or maybe, it is maturity which has led to this indecision.. of not being in a dream state wanting impossible things?

Have i finally lost it?

Three days and counting… i’ve been head-deep in depression! Why?! even i dont know!

I think it has something to do with the fact that my cousin is getting engaged… It got me into thinking about my own ‘plans’ for the future… which are basically nonexistent. You see, till now, all of us were single or dating, and the whole marriage concept was pretty much alien!

Then he goes and falls in love, gets the parents involved, and presto! they agree! Thats the ‘second’ time that has happened in my family… but even thats not the case. Its the fact that he was actually able to do it!

Since yesterday, i’ve gone out and put comments on no less than 2 blogs asking them if they would marry me! LoL! for the first time in my life… i think i’ve fallen as low as i could go!

I think i’ll go crawl in a hole now…… All of you are hereby welcome to dump shit on me….

And guess what! EVEN JOHN GOT A GIRL!!!! Now i think i’ll go dig my whole a little deeper 😦

Happy Day!

Yesterday, for me, was a very happy day! On three counts actually!

Count 1:
I got my first raise! Yayyyy! I know its against the culture to discuss pay, so i’ll just say it was a cool 33% increment! Also had my annual review done. Company policy is that the boss discusses our progresses with us before finalizing the report. This is what was said on my report.

Best Qualities
Techinical Ability
Learning Ability
Communication Skills

Points to work on
Personal Organization (i can live with that :-D)

General Comments
Asset to the company

Overall Result w.r.t Expectations
Above Expectations

The best part was the verbal compliments i got from my boss. You see, when i started this job, i was put in as a test subject. Im working as a consultant, and entered it straight after graduation. Now, generally, being a consultant means you have relevant experience and knowledge. Knowledge i had (having completed six years worth of degrees in Software Engineering) and the rest i learned (hence loved the learning ability in ‘best quality’). Now 8 months afterwards, i think the boss is seeing he made a good choice. My employment here was also very sudden, i came to him looking for advice as to where should i apply. He was my teacher (and is also my research supervisor)… and somehow, during our talks, he hinted that there might be an opening here.. and i immediately took it up! Next thing i knew.. i was sitting here two weeks later as an employee. Yippee!

When the complete report was discussed, i was asked “are you okay with this report?”, my reply:”……. you kidding! im FLATTERED!!” LoL!!! (i actually said dat)

Now onto count 2:
My cousin is getting engaged this weekend! This is the same one i spent the cousins day with. The bugger didnt even tell me anything about it! Yesterday, his sister comes upto me and says “I have good news”.. im go..”what?” and she breaks it to me! I swear i was much more in shock than anything else. The poor girl thought i was dissapointed to hear it or something. LoL! I had to explain that the way i was acting was me being ‘esctatic‘ !! LoL!

Count 3:
My dad came to karachi for two days! Yaay!! I love it when he’s around.. i can then get away from the ‘holding down the fort’ responsibilities for the while when he’s around.

Somehow, i maybe knew the day was going to be good. I was up at 7:30 without the alarms, ready by 8, and out of the house by 8:40!! After a long time i was at the office before 9:30! and most importantly, before the boss! Oh, also took dada for a checkup and went to a daawat in the night thrown for my other cousin who had recently got married.